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I'm Moving Ladies And Gents...go with me
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| "And I Hear The Ringing In My Ears" |
[24 Jun 2005|10:33am] |
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I hung out with some people the last couple days. And as it turns out guys you thought wouldn't treat you badly actually would. And he also let my friend know before me. And let me act like a bit of an idiot. So Rachel has no more boy toy. Even though he himself hasn't conversed with me about it.
I am staying in today as far as I know. I need a day to hate the world and sunshine. It's supposed to be like a horrible steam room with all those fat guys outside anyway. I'm not starting over from square one with happiness though which is what I always use to do. So, I'm getting over it. But I still need a day.
On a happy note that made my day I got to see my friend Ron who gave me a Ramones shirt that is super comfy and was really nice to sleep in. Sigh. He is a great guy.
I took the day off of internship. I was glad Youth Leader wasn't upset about it. Don't think I could have handled him being angry.
So Wish me happy brooding.
"I met a man without a dollar to his name
Who had no traits of any value but his smile
I met a man who had no yearn or claim to fame
Who was content to let life pass him for a while
And I was sure that all I ever wanted
Was a life like the movie stars led
And he kissed me right here, and he said,
"I'll give you stars and the moon and a soul to guide you
And a promise I'll never go
I'll give you hope to bring out all the life inside you
And the strength that will help you grow.
I'll give you truth and a future that's twenty times better
Than any Hollywood plot."
And I thought, "You know, I'd rather have a yacht."
-Songs For A New world::"Stars & The Moon"
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| "You Stand With A Voice In Your Head" |
[20 Jun 2005|12:46pm] |
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Woohoo. I had fun yesterday. Jen, Derek, and I rode down to some crazy flea market in Indiana. I met a nice lady down there who I bought a fancy purse from. I talked to her about The Seven Sisters that just opened here and jewelry. She summed me up pretty well. It was cool to meet her. I took one of the cards for the place but I seemed to have misplaced it.
Then we rode over to Newport. Hoping to catch Kevin Neilan at The Funny Bone, but the joy in that was you had to be 21 to get in. It was a major let down. We just drove around most of the day. We went to the Hot Topic in Newport and The Barnes And Noble. I however bought nothing. A rather large surprise. We talked in different accents all day and the best is when a car of young kids talk like old people for an extended period of time.
Then we went down to this beach in Fairfield. The Great Miami River. We were going to start a fire but it was late. Those frogs are the loudest I've ever heard. Picatures under the cut...
( Born To Die but I Don't Mind )
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| "Good Coffee, Strong Coffee," |
[17 Jun 2005|10:01pm] |
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I went and submitted myself into the viewing experience of "Sisterhood Of The Traveling Pants". It was actually a lot better than I expected. I tried going into the movie with an open mind. It was hard. But there were some good points and some stupid ones. I went with a group of people that are supser close to my heart. wackywanda being one of them.
As a strange twist. I thought I was going to leave my hair with the blonde for awhile. After we walked out of the movie theater I missed my funky colored hair. One of the girls in the book had blue in her hair. So two hours ago I put purple and red in it. My hair isn't fully dry yet so we'll have to wait and see how it turns out.
I may walk over to the library tommorow to see if they are hiring and I may head over to Walgreens and check them out too. Since both are within walking distance and that's what I need. Plus, a library would be awesome. since in the future I would love to run a bookstore. Plus whenever there are books around I'm happy.
I did a heck of a lot of shoveling today. Then my mom comes out and says to me
"Sweety we can't get that trunk up by ourselves"
And that's when I came in and did my hair.
I picked up the novelization of Mr. And Mrs. Smith today since I liked the movie plus I thought it would be interesting to see what they did with a book. I normally do not buy novelizations the only other one I've bought was for "Constantine" and that was only because it was so smeggin' awesome.
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| The Serious Moonlight |
[14 Jun 2005|03:49pm] |
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Welcome to the new exciting rework of the journal entry.
I will now include my PlayList Of The Day
And I know you are all beyond excited about that.
( PLAYLIST OF THE DAY EDITION 1! )
After my first day of internsip I only have one thing to say. Watching printers print is absolutely beyong boring, watching printer print with the wonderful people in the office was absolute hilarity.
"Maybe he's got a hot flash."
"Is R2 ready for use?"
EDIT:
I may be diving back into some interesting little music type deals with people. Anything where I can make money without digging myself into the dank,festering hole that is fast food is fine with me.
I may ride around and cause some trouble tonight. I have to get in touch with some people. Peace.
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| "So I Can Watch You Weave and Breath," |
[12 Jun 2005|05:24pm] |
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I actually have a skillet meal cooking right now. One of the things I have wanted to learn how to do and plan to do this over the summer is cook. I am beginning tonight even if it is the simple throw that sucker in a pan and watch it sizzle. Which I can do quite well.
I have been learning the benefit and value of a good ride around in a car with new people. I have been experiencing some new things and some tastes of things I use to love to do all the time. Now however there is something much happier about it. I am keeping out a bad habits. At least for a couple days...
I have been working on my writing less than I would like so I plan to stay home tommorow all day and work this all out. Tonight however may be something completely different where I am hoping to ride around in a car again tonight and probably do nothing and maybe get into some trouble. Can't promise anything.
I say my first lightning bug at night yesterday. I took it as a happy sign. Even if someone did squish it.
P.S: Don't watch movies with boys.
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| "No Room For Me, No Fun For You" |
[11 Jun 2005|09:25pm] |
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Wow! Would it kill me to update this lovely peice?
Life has been good, life has been bad.
I have been meeting some of the coolest people on the face of the planet. Actually making friends with people who care and people who are interested in talking and hanging out with me. Which there was a shortage of for awhile. I have just been in a general good sense of confidence and just a joyful type of life lately. I have been able to keep my head and that's a wonderful thing.
I have been advancing in my faith despite this hard situation at church. I am the only hard core member of the youth group left. Which in some ways needed to happen so we could realize what a bad situation we are in. I need to take some steps to be able to to talk to people and this is going to force me into. I have some ideas on how to make the church better and how to bet more people into it. I need to make a commitment and it needs to happen soon. (If you pray) pray for me especially hard on friday, I may go to the movie and try to get people to show up to some youth groups. I'm going to talk to the youth leader of doom about it. There is a taste that there is going to be success. I may go to the mall and try and invite a few people. I do however need to bolster up my self esteem before hand so I can deal with the angry people that might occur. It's heavy stuff.
Junior year is a few days away from being over and that fills me with more joy than anyone can imagine. I am ready to go into senior year, but most of all I am ready for a break so I can sit back and take a breath.
I have been writing almost nonstop and just improving left and right. I know for sure it is what I want to do with my life. I am working on a new project. This quartet of books (very ambitious) and I have never been so motivated. It is awesome so far and I am really excited about diving further into the stories.
"There's something due any day
I will know, right away
Soon as it shows
It may come cannonballing down
Through the sky
Gleam in its eye, bright as rose
Who knows?
It's only just out of reach
Down the block, on a beach
Under a tree
I got a feeling there's a miracle due
Gonna come true, comin' to me...
Could it be, yes, it could
Something's comin', something good
If I can wait!
Something's comin',
I don't know what it is
But it is gonna be great!
With a click, with a shock ,
Phone'll jingle, door will knock,
Open the latch!
That about sums up my feelings at the moment.
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| "A Day" |
[10 Jun 2005|09:43pm] |
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It was a good day.
I went down to the Art Hop in Hamilton.
On Main St. in Hamilton some artists and crafters go out into different shops and there was a tent on the street as well where people just sell their art and crafts. It was one of the coolest things ever.
I had one of the best ideas I've had in a long time which was to advertise for Cafe Loco there. I went and talk to shop owners on main street and handed out fliers to all kinds of people there. In was an awesome day.
I didn't have any money to buy anything but I got to talk to several different people.
You may be wondering what Cafe Loco is...
And yes that is my amazing art you are witnessing.
He's a Lonely Poet Coffee Bean that is sad because he has no fingers to snap.
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| "Mission Sort Of Accomplished" |
[17 Apr 2005|08:59pm] |
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And my Mission was...not really accomplished, but my day was absolutely killer.
Jessica and I got to wander around talking about thing and letting off steam and Jen got out of her house as well. The three people who are "in hell" constantly actually were released from their prisons beneath their houses.
Saw Constantine for the third time, it was hard to pay attention because my "so called" friends were chattering. Then I drove around with my new friends Ron and Brian, and my old friend Jen for a little bit.
It was insanely awesome.
But Sunday started with a headache the size of Amsterdam. An annoying headache that continued the rest of the day. Through drama which therefore made me completely useless.
Everyone who lives in the vicinity of Hamilton staring May 7 there is going to be a coffeehouse at the First United Methodist Church located at 225 Ludlow that is going to be wicked awesome. Everyone go.
I am not patiently waiting for my packages to get here.
My award ceremony thing is Friday, I am absolutely terrified because all these people said they were showing up, I really hope I do not have to read, unless God quickly blesses me with a load of self confidence.
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| Yes, I Know I'm A Nerd |
[16 Apr 2005|11:45am] |
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Yesterday I got my check for shredding paper for several hours. Guess what I did with it?
I got onto Amazon.com hours after receiving the check and promptly began my search for deals. I bought the Constantine Novelization, The Constantine Hellblazer collection, the Donnie Darko book, and The Stranger (recommended by my lovely English teacher).
Today I hope to sneak to my third viewing of Constantine with a friend of my who has yet to see it. Let's hope that that works out. I pray *does so* that my friend and I will be able to sneak under her parents noses and get her to the movie, cause it'll be fun.
And yet to accompany my nerd-dom I also have a mission.
( Fahrenheit Hamilton, Ohio )
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| "Bag Another Rant" |
[08 Apr 2005|12:00am] |
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I am so so tired of people being worried about class. Not class as in "You have no class", but as in the idea of lower class and higher class.
This town is riddled with people too scared to take themselves down a notch and do anything. At my church I can taste the start of a revolution and nothing is catching on. People that use to come all the time now fail to come at all. I am sitting around waiting for people to achieve. To move forward and they sit in the same place.
Idiotic things are getting in the way for most people. I need some people who care to come and check us out. People who think youth group do not like to talk about Pulp Fiction and Jay and Silent Bob. I need some people around. I need to make sure my Youth Leader that I love keeps his job. I need to make sure that this church is more than just one more church that shoves people out. I want a revolution.
First I need an army.
I am tired of television and people building their lives around it. I am sick and tired of people saying the goverment policy should be "Blow Em up," and the same person saying that women can not do anything but cook in the kitchen. Tired of people thinking that women are idiots because they have breasts and not dicks. I am tired of sitting in classes with busy work. Tired of waiting to get out of high school. tired of waiting for good inspiration.
MOST OF ALL I am absolutely tired of having all this energy and nobody sharing it with me. Nobody wanting to jump except for the youth leader who is just as frustrated as I am.
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| Then I Drop Kicked Him |
[06 Apr 2005|01:34pm] |
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I have been running into a bunch of people I use to hang out with all the time.
I actually exercised yesterday. It resulted in me being more tired today. Joy.
I am writing nonstop and going back and restarting old projects. Which is slightly ironic and annoying since my old projects resemble poop in a myriad of ways.
I saw Constantine and Sin City. I rate Constantine above Sin City. I want to predict Sin City coming out in video game form because that would rock and besides who doesn't want to mutilate someone via game controller? Sin City is Pulp Fiction on acid with a running narration of someone drowning in cigarettes and whiskey.
"A Heartbreaking Work Of Staggering Genius" by David Eggers is taking me forever to read. However the author had endeared himself to me and makes me want to finish the book because he has hilarious speeches in it and crazy things all over the book.
SPEECH BULLETIN::I have picked up using the word "dig". Not dig as in dig a hole or, digging six feet under to hide a corpse. As in "I dug it," and "You'd dig it"
It came out of nowhere and I am terrified.
P.S: I am drinking apple juice
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| Making Some Choices |
[30 Mar 2005|07:08am] |
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May 8 2005 would be a year sXe for me.
While I was on this trip in New Orleans my mind went through a few different things. I had planned to move down there. Hopefully go to Loyola or Tulane. I mean they have a Zoo, Aquarium, and old books stores it is a nice place. But I was walking around in the French Quarter. The place is amazing just bustling with life.
My friends and I had developed all these plans to move down there. The first thing that I realized when I was down there is that I kept thinking of Oxford in Ohio while I was there. Let me inform you that people walking out in front of your car is even worse in the French Quarter. I thought and thought while I was down there walking through the streets. I realized that I do not need to move a billion miles away to be independent. I do not need to make sure my friends are with me. I was all about the plan of moving to New Orleans because I wanted to be in a great atmosphere with my friends, but I am discovering that there are opportunities right around here, in fact even a few streets down from me right now. Oxford is a only a drive away.
The next thing on my list of thinking through was the sXe thing I had been doing for the past several months. I have proven to myself that I do not need those things to be happy and that in general I do not need those things in general. I should have figured this out before when my life was depressing when I had these things at my fingertips. I do not need a label anymore to tell me how to live my life. That is how it has been feelings lately. There is no reason for me to not do things in the future I might want to do because of a label. I have my life now and I do not need the bandana in my back pocket with safety pins in a X to point at me and say "Don't think those things, Don't laugh at those things ect." I need my own conscience to decide what is right and what is wrong. Not a society that decides to pound people's faces into concrete when they are not sXe anymore or when they see them smoking. I do not want to be associated with that anymore in anyway.
When I first took it up it was for me. I felt like it was an interesting things and a good way to live. I have been running into more and more people who when they hear people are sXe they make horrible faces and shake their heads and tell me a story about someone they knew who got beaten into oblivion.
I am already associated with Christians, and Lord knows that is enough.
I have been moving into a different point in my life and I need to mark that properly and perfectly. I need to recognize where I am going and that I am making my own decisions. sXe is just one of those things that need to go because it has been making me someone I do not exactly want to be.
On a more cheerful note, I won a place in a Fitton Center poetry contest, not sure what yet but I am highly happy with myself. I am also on Spring Break which is a very very happy note and I have been able to spend some time with some friends already. I have also decided yet again that I am not going to eat as much and I am going to eat healthy things. I am kicking off my day right now with applejuice/7-up and a green apple. So wish me luck with all these things. If you do not want to then *sticks tongue out*
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| Punks On The Sidelines |
[18 Mar 2005|12:25pm] |
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Wow, I didn't exactly mean to drop off the face of the Earth but apparently I did.
I always think about doing another entry and never got to it.
Well, I'm alive and probably at a better place in life than I have been in forever. I could be growing up or I could just have better people around me. My friendships have deepened and I have been writing like nobody and their mom's business. I have actually been opening my mouth in classes. Answering questions, talking to people I don't know very well and have been met with some actually pleasing results. I am thinking Senior year is going to be wonderful, because Junior year has been great so far. I have actually taken some interest in my classes ect.
And I have been cracking open the book we in the trade like to call the bible and actually reading books and analyzing.
Typing feels weird now too. It's been so long since I have sat down and typed a lot.
I'll finish this with some random quotes taken out of context.
(and i just squashed my toe with my backpack)
"The Girl Who Spontaneously Combusted Watching Constantine:: An Autobiography"
"During the hours of the mobsters"
"Motives are what usually kill people"
"The land of happy flowers"
"Because your voice would automatically change when you grow a beard"
"He is fire breathing which makes him more fearsome"
"Here's where it gets really cool"
"Gibbles the undying monkey of fame and fortune"
"I inspired your turttle"
"If I were writing and entry on the love of my life I would pick pizza rolls because they are very tasty"
"What it is I know not but with gratitude my tears fall"
"To fulfill their duty of enjoying the funk"
and last but not least
"Why Hello! I don't remember you, but welcome to my bed"
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| And Then God Quoted Bebop |
[17 Jan 2005|01:14pm] |
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Nothing this weekend could have been an accident.
We'll start our story with two weeks ago in a land up the stairs from where I am right now I sat down on my bed and looked at the cover of my bible for a few minutes thinking
"I need to read it...but what do I read?"
So I open it to a random page and it is the very first page of a book called Amos. It was kinda like...Ok God I'll read this one because apparently you want to wack me against the side of the head with a 2x4. The book starts out with talking about King Uzziah. It tells you that Amos is writing this in the time of King Uzziah. I call my trusty youth leader the next day and ask if he knows anything about Amos. He tells me to look up Uzziah. Eventually we find Uzziah in 2nd Chronicles. Apparently he was a good king, but he had leprosy.
I leave for this Dare2Share conference on Friday after school. I'm late, so that means I'm stressed out. I have a nice relaxing ride down. Got an Angus Burger from Burger King. Delicious. We arrive at the church where we are staying in Columbus. Then we drive to the convention center. We walk in and the Youth Leader Of Doom comes out and looks at us
"Apparently there's an Anime convention here this weekend too,"
My friend and I freak. right. out. It was awesome. We were wandering around watching people in their get ups. Then we got trailed into the other conference. The leader comes out and tells us about running over cats. We start out the whole weekend with a crowd surfing game. Then they read a scripture, From Isiah
"In the year King Uzziah Died I saw the Lord. He was sitting on a lofty throne,and the train of his robe fileld the temple. Hovering around him were mighty Seraphim, each with six wings. With two wings they covered their faces, with two they covered their feet, and with the remaining two they flew. In a great chorus they sang 'Holy, holy, holy is the Lord Almighty! The whole earth is filled with his glory!' The glorious singing shook the Temple to its foundations, and the entire sanctuary was fileld with smoke"
First off King Uzziah! The guy from Amos. The guy who was ruling when Amos wrote his book. the YLOD(Youth leader of Doom) looks at me then points up at where he assumes God was sitting and I was like...I know.
( Peter Likes DDR )
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| Understand You Are Not Alone |
[13 Jan 2005|04:50pm] |
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Tommorrow after school I am going to a creepy christian gathering up In Columbus called Dare2Share. I could come back a completely different person. That idea slightly frightens me, excited mes more than anything really. This week has been preparing me for it really. With the poetry slam and just my overall sudden love for human beings instead of an overall hated is really a factor considering the huge amount of people that will be there.
I think I need a retreat anyway. It will be a welcome getting out of the house thing. Even if my mom will be going. So those of you that pray, pray that I won't hate her the whole weekend. Those of you that meditate, meditate for me to have some sort of experience. Those of you that sacrifice goats kill one of those buggers in hoping there will be good food somewhere up there.1
My life has had a weird joyous thing going on. I am writing a lot more and just having an overall good time where I once lacked it day to day used to be a fight. I can't express how wonderful it is to have finally reached a point like this.
It has been storming outside all day. Someone told me that storms meant that something was changing. Let's hope it is in a good direction instead of a bad one.
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1=But if PETA or Vegans attack you, it wasn't me that told you to kill a goat.
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| Poetry Slam |
[12 Jan 2005|07:25pm] |
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I happened to actually venture out of my house some yesterday night. It was for a poetry slam at the high school. It was the first time in a long time I was glad to be in Hamilton for the people around me.A man performed some of his poetry. It was amazingly inspiring. I must have been glowing. A few other people read some of their poetry and I was too scared of people to read mine.
It was the most fun I have had in a long time. And finding out that the fitton center does this constantly is very exciting. I may try and escape to get to some more poetry slams like if they have any up in Oxford. This finally gives me a very good reason to want to learn how to drive.
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| And Then I Ate His Face |
[31 Dec 2004|04:11pm] |
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I'm sure some of you must have friends, and some of these friends might have the glorious blessing of the internet in their homes. I love to be able to chat and connect with my friends on a million different levels but when these friends abuse e-mail and send me chain letters I have a moment of wishing I had no friends.
I was finally getting use to not having to take care of and delete crap mail. I was joyous about it in fact. So joyous. I love my friends, there's no doubt. But I love them less when I get a letter about a sex fairy....
( You really should not read this )
Now, first off the first time these nice facts came into my eyesight was in Weekly World News.
But it all actuality...I have to do an examine my friend's brain party. My question is do my friends really believe that by not sending this on their genitals will fall off? Not just fall off...rot and fall off? Another problem is that I have friends who KNOW each other. So I received this e-mail twice and may get it a few more times in the future.
Do humans even give off pheromones?
Oh yeah, Happy New Year
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